MYSTIC MESSENGER: Love across the 4th Wall (1)

What was I even thinking? I mean like, seriously, did I actually really think she was saying all these things because she...liked me in any way? Haha...I am such an idiot.
I have told myself from the very beginning to not get too attached to her. She is a precious flower that needs to be protected by someone who can actually guarantee and provide her safety. Someone other than me.
Well, she didn’t chose me or anything. She went playing Casual Mode, I guess she didn’t want to spend any money on me. Not that I wanted her too, no, Casual Mode was just perfect. I hoped she’d just stay there forever.
She was not really sure about what she was doing at first. I noticed how unexperienced she was with this whole thing, how she accidentally said the wrong things and messed up the emails. She was simply adorable being so clumsy and awkward. I think that’s when my heart melted.
I had no clue whom she would pick, if she even knew you had to raise affection by being nice to one specific person in order to get a route. Well, apparently she had no idea what she was doing since she kept being nice to me all the time.
I remember clearly how she laughed at my jokes, participated when I teased Yoosung, talked on the phone with me late at night. I still remember her soft voice whispering “Honey, I love you!” the first time I ever called her.
Telling her to say that because her bank account had been hacked was one of the, no, the best prank I’ve ever pulled off. And that had to mean something since I already pulled off about a million pranks.
But apparently she forgot that she was in Casual Mode. Nothing would come out of being so nice to me. But maybe she didn’t even know that. Anyways, she got the Bad Ending after four days. Four of the best days of my life, in fact. For that small amount of days, I could pretend that she liked me, that she simply didn’t know that she couldn’t get me in Casual Mode, and that she actually aimed for my route.
I felt sorry for her. She seemed so innocent and she didn’t deserve that Bad Ending since it was kind of creepy, I admit that. But at least she’d learned something from it.
When she came back she seemed a lot more confident. She suddenly looked as if she knew what to do, at least more than before. I felt she had a plan. But apparently that plan involved flirting with me again.
We went on about my work, chatted endlessly and had fun talking on the phone after midnight. She didn’t seem to be aiming to get a specific Casual Mode character this time either but I didn’t really care. I was simply thankful that she supported me that much. It almost felt as if we’re meant to be.
I already looked forward to mocking Yoosung about having that disease with her again but just when I was about to pull it off she suddenly took his side.
That was the first time I felt my heart sting a little. I was suddenly faced with her having fun with and supporting another one. And even though I tried to supress the feeling I knew that deep down I hated seeing her and Yoosung like this.
It was no wonder she got his route this time, leaving me all alone. I wasn’t prepared for the pain that hit me when I checked her progress and saw Yoosung’s face on the route panel. Guess we weren’t meant to be after all. But that was not even the hardest part. That was still to come.